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Don't know why..
Here's the only place I think I can say what I want to say
Typing has become a habit after so long
Probably this is the best way for me to release my soul
So..
listening to a song makes me think of a lot of things
I'm sure she did too when listening
I realize
I'm really unstable
I don't know why
But I don't want to rush you
I'll patiently wait for you
Look at all the "I"s
its only about me
its about you
I realize
I'm really selfish
I only think I'm the one hurting
But you
you must hurting a lot too
when you're bored
millions of things must be going through your mind
you're sad
you're frustrated
you're lonely
you're bored
I shouldn't be like this
you have all my support
all of me
everything is yours
if you hold me tight
I'm your forever
you my dear
is the best ever to me
don't ever think other than that =)

Reminder to me

Memories are built to last, but not only if one chooses not to forget it. I chose this path because my memories are the most precious thing I have in the world, and as I stared in front of the bright screen of my computer, I realize that, our story is still being written on that memory book where it all started with you.

You came into my world when I first saw you as an innocent and shy girl in that bright lecture hall that lit you up like a candle. That day, I saw you standing in front of the crowd with that jet black hair and those big round eyes of yours that mirrored my very emotions. However, at that very moment, I didn’t know that my heart was already yours. Not until the day I saw you with him. When my heart sank like a stone. What could I do? What could I say? I don’t even know you. I don’t even know your name. I was just a stranger to you. So I prayed and hoped that I could meet you more, just to be your friend. Little did know, we were already fated to be in the same group and I tried my best to just keep myself as your friend.

The days as a friend passed by in a blink of an eye as I listened to you, talked to you and teased you in every possible manner. In this period of time, we made each other laugh, giggle, and smile. For once in my life, I was really happy and comfortable around you. We talked about anything and everything even though most of it was crap. We missed precious lecture notes on aimless conversations and didn’t even give a shit about it. Until one day, where something happened and of all of sudden, a bright light shone in those dark corners of my heart and brought back the hope that was long lost.

Ever since then, the happiest time of my life came when I was with her. In this period of time, I was no longer lonely, no longer in pain because I had you and that this is the most wonderful thing that ever happened to me. So I swore to ever that listened to me that this is the last time I’m ever going to put myself into a relationship and that you are the one I should cherish with all my heart. Time flied yet again when we were together, holding our hand, thinking about our future and all the promises we made to each other. Some were kept, some were broken. Sometimes we fought, sometimes we cried. But no matter what, there was always happiness.

This is not an ordinary post and this is also not to show anyone anything. This is the memory of you, me and our story that will always stay with me. I’ll always remember this and I’ll always cherish this. I might not be the one, but believe me, you’re always the one that I cherish, I appreciate and I love. For anyone that is reading to this point, remember the one you love and don’t forget to cherish her because whatever you have now is what you are blessed with. You might not have a chance to say what you mean tomorrow.

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I really don't know what to do now..
10 months of relationship
threatened to extinction..
all the promises we ever made...
what happened to never leaving each other?
what happened to loving each other always?
what happened to our happy times?
I just wish...
just wish
just wish with all my heart
that I can be selfish one time in my life..in love
that I can keep you
It really hurts..
no matter what I do..
no matter how much I force myself not to think
the tears
just keep flowing
flowing like a broken pipe
I don't know what to do anymore..
my heart's so weak..
what am I to you?
I promised not to let you go
you promised me too
this is our promise
our bond
my love for you...
I really love you
from the bottom of my heart
I wish you won't go
I wish you don't have to decide
I wish.....everything will be alright
That's all I wish for from the bottom of my heart.

College reopen!

After 3 weeks of long study leave....
finally...
it is time to start college again!
seriously
start college got good got bad
good is got things to do le
good is can see dear everyday le
good is can see friends like shawn
lol
shawn got gf already
wooo~~
grats you here ya =)

bad is need to wake up damn early again
bad is need to take public transport and squeeze with people everyday
bad is tired everyday when i reach home
but overall...is good also la =)
start of new sem
also like start a new live
time table new
got some new teacher
new subject
wooo~
seriously
i think i like this sem
subjects seem nicer ><
and some teacher seem nicer too
hahaha

anyway
1 week....
sot is the only bloody dumb school in TARC
that actually have tutorial ==
lecture also haven't start la...
sianzzzz
but still ok la
cause timetable change
this sem not so early start class
=D
english period now cant wear short pants
i think the lecturer say nia
zzz
and im too dumb to believe it
LOL
really went and wear jeans
urgh
hot hot hot

we did 2 presentations dy
1 is introduce ourselves and 1 is story telling
( and yes like those you tell to kindergarden students )
i don't know is it too long never speak in front of people
suddenly i become so nervous
==
lol
something is so wrong
like screwed up them both la
i must be more relaxedddd~~~

so anyway
besides all this crap
RESULTS IS OUT!!!
wooooO~~
after so long of waiting and suffering
i finally got......
3A 3B and a CGPA of 3.5441 @@
lolz
overall is still ok la
dear got 3.48 ( she insists i say 3.48 instead of 3.4 XD )
grats oh dear~~~
but still....
lose to me!!!
XD

but is ok~~
this sem we work hard togather kay?
I know we can do better
help each other out
3.75/3.8 is my next aim
i can make it~~~!!!

Segamat trip

I think, if i don't blog somemore
I will forget what happen in Segamat
ermmm
so...
main thing...
at segamat i ate alot
seriously alot
not that the food dear's mum cook is not nice
just
don't know why la
hahaha
like pig
oinkzz~

friday?? erm...3rd day of segamat trip??
sorry ar if wrong ><
old man me
huhu
dear's house made BBQ oh
so funny
dear's friends thought i never BBQ before
huhu so bad
BBQ was fun leh
cause can bbq with dear thats the main point xD
i keep drop the butter ( i think is butter )
and don't know why others can make the fire *poof~~* out i can't 1
wuwu they ejek me cause of that
so funny xD
then right..
after end that time wash plate lorh
waaa so bising like fish market + meat market + fruit market =x
so worry will make dear's parents wake up
they still got work ma the next day
wash plate finish dy when go out
waaaa ~~
all shout ming hua gor gor
tio stun sia @@

see this see this

left 1 is called ken zai, right 1 is called vian zai =D
me and dear dear geh zai zais

and this is family photo xD
love you~~

Day 1 : segamat trip~~~

Fuyoh fuyoh fuyoh
we interupt this program to bring you a short advertisment~~
bibo bibo
joking
><
last week~~
monday ar
hmmm yaya
zzz
forgot le
monday last paper for 1st sem~
dont talk bout exam le
not important jor
iz segamat trip!!
dear dear geh hometown
go back with her ohhh
tuesday morning
11+ liddat we go fetch dear dear from wangsa maju
then take her eat lurhh
with my mum and sis
eat at lot 10 that food court
dont know what the name
my sis order the big big hamburger n smelly cheesy char siew pizza
zzz eat the pizza
till want vomit
urghhh
but the hamburger nice oh!~
got time go try le~~

our train was at errrr what time jor ar dear dear?
oh yeah 2+ so we reach around that time la
3 hour train ride to segamat oh
so nice lo got dear dear with me leh we whole trip

these the pics we took in the train
hehe
we just talk and eat snack and sleep nia whole trip
feel so good
no stress
nothing to fan
miss that time
haizz
anyway
we reach around 5+ le
dear dear friend
shealy come fetch us oh
she keep ask me why i so quiet
lol zzz
paiseh ma
><

reach dear home
even worse
her mum and dad there
LOL
paiseh douuu
her mum dy cook dinner le that time
we fast fast ate dinner cause we gonna go out
and sing k with dear's friends
dear's parents got talk to me le
just ask normal stuff lurh
dear's dad very excited oh according to dear
lol
he tell me his story of drinking beer
from he 18 year old till now
the beer bottle can line up till thailand!!
wow~

then time for us to go out le
shealy fetch again
quite nice lo dear's friends
1st they we never talk much la
dear dear keep ask me to introduce myself
eeee
dont copy my mum eh~~
><
that night
we reach back around 12 oh
tabao mcd to eat before come back
in the end became my supper cause dear say not nice le
huhu
neway
thats about it lurhh for the first day
got 6 more days
LOL
continue tomorrow ba
=)

Im back le

Im back le
from my 1 week trip at dear's hometown, segamat
wanna blog bout the trip de..
but..
haizzz
too sad
dowan blog about it today
tomorrow gua
when i not so unstable
huhu
i miss you baby
so so so much